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What a day – the worst the outcome that could happened ended up happening. The folks I came to work for, the individuals why I actually made the move were all let go. I have no details on what happened, or why it happened – just that it happened today. I was afraid this was going to be outcome when these folks didn’t show up for last 2 weeks but still unreal. Having worked with one for few years in my old company I know him more as a friend than colleague and irrespective of outcome here continues to be my friend. Needless to say I am feeling extremely deflated today – and of course now added stress to what all these changes to me and my work. Ugh. Fuck this shit!

I used to be a vegetarian for a long time before I finally tasted meat in college and since then have been an omnivore. But off late I have started preferring vegetarian again – I have pretty much stopped eating red meat and I end up picking fish over chicken more often than not. But if there is an exciting vegetarian option I will give up fish also. Like I feel veggies are just so much more fresher and lighter on tummy. I might just end up becoming vegetarian all over again!

Yesterday was a relatively lighter day for me so I ended up meeting not one but two of my ex colleagues from work – one guy I worked with almost 6 years ago but we have kept in touch and other guy is my ex manager from my previous company who also announced he is leaving. Both middle aged white men with families and kids around same age as my teen. The first guy left the cushy job few years ago because he didn’t like what we were working on and took on independent consulting and non profits. I know he got a terrific offer back then that he gave up. My ex managers did not wait for his stock vests either. He was so disillusioned working for the company that he decided to make a jump to a startup. I admire the confidence with which white people take risks. Like I think I am a risk taker too but it comes with so much anxiety, self doubt and general feeling of omg I fucked up. While these folks are generally of mindset of fuck if I know I did the right thing until it fails. I guess our Indian subconsciousness never really makes us confident about taking risks does it?

Last year before our Spain trip I got this convertible day pant that was comfy as heck. I used it throughout Spain and kept telling my wife how well they fit me and – and ability to convert it into a nice evening pant from shorts was a killer! For our spring break this year I took it out again for packing and it was then my eyes saw it. I confirmed it again in two different places and for sure it was true – I had been hugging a woman’s convertible pant for whole of Spain trip. A never checked coz she was like you love it, keep it! And after we came back, once it was in wash and out I have not take it out again. So yeah, the day pant that I absolutely love(d) is actually a women’s pant. I am having all sorts of questions about myself today.

Last night we went to a nice Mexican place. Total bill was almost 140 bucks for 3 of us and with a 20% tip of 28 bucks came to 168$. We were in and out in 90 minutes, and our server spent perhaps at best 10 minutes with us – he got us water, took our order, got us food and then check. That’s it. 28 bucks for 10 mins of actual table work is sweet as heck deal. While I don’t mind giving the tip, it really is a scam alright.