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I hope Indian goes on to lose next test match also and Sri Lanka wins against NZ so they go to final with Australia. Will serve them right! So happy australia won.

Slack reminders are the only way I remain productive at work.

I didn’t even bother watching the third india australia test and I do not regret it at all looking end of day scores.

Last night around 3 ish there was a loud thunderstorm that lasted a while. I can’t remember the last time we had a thunderstorm this early in the year!

Tomorrow will be 12 years since mom passed away. As if to make that feeling worse we are watching Dopesick on Hulu that is so heartbreaking to watch, especially knowing addiction/dependence up close. After her accident in 2007, my mom was prescribed Xanax that completely engulfed her. Towards the end I don’t think she was even aware of how much Xanax she was having because she had become so dependent on it. She hid it all from everyone, and while I suspected many other things were wrong with her sitting 10000 miles away, I never once guessed addiction.

Years later while we were emptying out her belongings we discovered stash upon stash of Xanax hidden in her belongings. Those discoveries led to new stories around how mom always looked drowsy but people assumed something else, or how our car driver would take her medical shops that gave her the drug (I mean its India, nobody cared what it was), and how everyone she purchased from was swore to secrecy by her. Or how everyone around her quietly assumed she was taking sleeping pill to ease her from her accident pain of years ago. Or nobody gave a fuck when she refused to see doctors, or allowed anyone to touch her purse and prized belongings.

I tried my damnest hard to help her from here, but not knowing what it was, and not having that forcing influence on family I could never get her to go to a doc. I wish I knew what she was on and I understood the signs; maybe then maybe I could have forced the family to get her proper counseling and support. I wish family around her took the signs seriously and stepped in. All that’s left is a series of what-ifs. I dont know if Xanax took her life eventually in form of a heart attack, but even if it didnt, it made her miserable. So I hope she’s happy wherever she is now, because we miss her everyday and not a day goes by without me thinking what could’ve been.

India has made a mockery of test cricket with their pitches and I am glad it’s now being talked about — [so much this about Indian cricket pitches](https://www.espncricinfo.com/cricket-videos/aakash-chopra-says-if-every-test-lasts-only-two-and-a-half-days-there-is-a-problem-with-the-pitch-1361270)

How does a government slowly keep changing their citizens mindset to convince them that war is absolutely necessary is playing out in real time in USA. Both parties to blame here but to me its clear that public opinion is being swayed continuously to convince us that going to war with China is the right thing to do.

I honestly won’t be surprised if Scott Adams ran for presidency and also win it. He is making all the right moves and comments to set him up for success.

England New Zealand showing us what real test cricket is all about while India Australia showing us how borefests are created.

The kid got her results last night and she missed getting into Algebra 1 course by 1 percent. The cutoff was 91%, while she scored 90%. To qualify for Algebra 1 in middle school in Fairfax county, kids need to pass the IAAT math exam with score > 91% and have advanced proficiency in state SOL (which she will!). Considering many of her friends made it, she has been devastated. While we were initially bummed too, I am almost thankful to a bit that she doesn’t have to take on the pressure of a high school course right out of gate in middle school. Could she have taken it on? Probably. But given her future interests about where she wants to be, its not going to impact her college readiness since CS/Math is the last thing she wants to do anyway. But cheering her up yesterday was a challenge. Thankfully by night time she was all prepped up and excited about taking on Math 7 honors class instead!