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Phone-screened a candidate few days ago and decided not to move ahead. Candidate finds me on LinkedIn and sends me a 2 page email on why I made a mistake with tons of examples and notes on why the candidate is the BEST choice for me. Look, I appreciate the diligence and going out of way, but your opportunity to impress me has passed. This is not a sales role, and if I am not going to give you extra points for your push.

An interesting mind shift for me already since yesterday is as I am looking around to change teams within the company I am now paying more attention to if my leadership chain at least 2-3 levels up is white or POC, and I dont think at this point I can blame myself for looking for team & manager that’s run by POCs because I think thats the only way to feel… safer?

One of the big outcomes for me personally after this week is to trust my gut more than data and anecdotes. I knew this would happen, I just did not want to admit it that it could happen. Another is to take *less* interest in politics than before because it’s causing serious mental health issues for me, and I must be focussed on my personal health and family over anything else, because as white Americans and a good majority of other POC told us, its profit over lives. So yeah I plan to reduce my political interest in the next several months. No more stressing around my friends here on whom they should vote for. They got eyes, they can very well research. It’s distressing when a few people ping you after the election and ask *”what is project 2025? I know you sent something before but I ignored it. I just voted whoever you told me to man”*. I dont deserve to carry the burden and stress of informing people around me because the are living a chill life and I am not. So yes I am going to start focusing on I, me, myself more than try to save something that I know (trusting my gut) Americans dont want saving.

For the last several years I have actively discouraged friends and family from moving to the USA. My sole advice to my cousins and aspiring nephews to migrate for jobs or masters has been to reconsider and either go somewhere else or stay put in India. I and my friends often talk about that if we were 22 today none of us would have considered coming here for a better future. Today I am vindicated because I did the right thing for all of them. My advice to my remaining cousins in USA is going to be the same – if they don’t have kids or young kids, and are in visa/GC queue – leave.

An ex-Muslim colleague of mine that I had blogged about a few days ago in California gleefully texted me about Trump win this morning and that we should connect this evening. He’s been pinging me about helping him get a job. I was like I am not in a mental space to talk after outcome and he was like oh you voted Kamala? Needless to say no chatting with him is happening any time soon.

Sorry I am crying and I want to go back home to India so much today.

How much did Gaza impact this election will be something to look for. I wish Biden grew a pair when dealing with Israel. His weakest points for me was when Netanyahu just played him around like a puppy and Biden did… nothing. Not only did it make look Biden and America stupid and weak, but it also said a lot to people out here that Biden/Harris didnt care about the genocide happening there. They were punished for it I am sure.

So i guess Covid ultimately didnt do its job?

Still not reconciling the fact that he got LESS votes than 2020 and still managed to win the popular vote by 6 million votes. Where the fuck did those 18 million people go? They just sat… out?

The difference between white men and white women is white men will vote *for their* interests while white women will consistently vote *against* their interests. Yet again, white women voted in majority for Trump. As I said, this is not a voting bloc you can count on, ever.